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So, I have a cousin who is currently serving in the military in Iraq. We set it up so we could talk on skype back and forth, well... we can see and hear him, I have to type (note to self: get a webcam). He was telling me how he showed some of his buddies pictures of me and the lil sis on his myspace and a few expressed interest. Still not sure they weren't just looking at Justin.
ANYWAYS, one of his friends, Darby, was asking a lot of questions about me and Alden, being the big brother I never wanted, grilled him before he let Darby email me. Alden wants me and Justin to go to Hawaii to visit him when he gets back in May. Welllll, they have their annual Military Ball at the end of May and its on Oahu this time. Darby got permission from Alden to ask me (which he did) and he's finding Justin a date. The guys are getting our plane tickets and we'll be staying with Alden that week. Finally a reason to go dress shopping. I've lost SOME weight, but this is just the motivation I needed to lose more. I still don't know if this is really happening, but my life has been at a low point, I'll take any picker-uppers I can get.
Okay, that's it.

So... is anyone else excited about Twilight coming out on Friday??

Most of you may remember how I hurt my ankle back at Tarleton during my soph. year. Weeellll.... all it took was one step then and it only took one step this time as well. Same ankle... same fall... all for that last FREAKIN' step. I didn't hurt it as bad this time, I'm only in a walking boot for a couple of weeks. For something like this, there never really is a "good" time. But come one! 110 degrees with a boot?!?

So, I hate it when someone does you wrong, you react like a human being would, then you feel guilty about how rude you were. ACH!

I'm pissed. That's all, I'm just pissed. Sorry, I needed a good scream and I'm in public and would get some wierd looks- so I "screamed" on here. Thanks for covering your ears.

I love reading all of the updates everybody posts- it makes me feel... updated. Then I realized I hadn't posted anything in a while. So, here it goes:

I got a job as a nanny until my job at the church starts. Its not exactly what I wanted to be doing, but it gives me money to pay off loans. I don't start until Aug. 20th with an 8 mo. old little boy. Good hours and good pay is all I'm asking. I'm very thankful that God gave me that much.

I think this might be one of those "long" weeks. You know, the ones where something exciting is happening over the weekend and the week just drags because you look forward to it so much. This Friday night, I ride out with Mark during his PD shift. That's me and him, stuck together for 8 hours. I am so stoked! This is the Mark that I often referred to him as "Officer Hottiepants." We're becoming good friends. I'd rather have that than nothing.

My job at the church I mentioned earlier is for the director of the drama ministry. It started out just putting on Sunday morning productions for the kids. Then the youth minister heard about it and wanted me to look into starting drama for middle/high school. Now the new music minister is all about big productions at Easter and Christmas and he wants something started for Christmas. Needless to say, it went to children's drama to a full out drama ministry. I'll wait as long as I need to for this job. Its what I want. The whole tour thing was kind of a sad revelation. The director/writer/producer was very irresponsible with money and I don't think I can rely on that sort of "maybe."

Alright, that's it. Thanks for reading and I miss all of you. Take care and God bless.

You know, as girls, you kinda expect other girls to- for a lack of a better phrase- stab you in the back. You like a guy and so does a friend. When the guy chooses the other girl and your friend turns her back on you, you hurt. After so long, you guard your heart against those kind of things, learning to get over them quickly. But when its your own sister, the knife feels sharper, the cut a little deeper. Quickly to catch you up, Mark (the cop I've been crushing on for two years) took Justin to dinner last week because he "felt bad for missing her graduation." I was bitter, I'll be honest. You know me. But she said she didn't have anything for him, that it was weird that she was going to dinner with him in the first place. Weeeellll, low and behold, he flashes his gorgous (spelling?) smile and she falls for it. So now, there are two sisters in the same household, interested in the same guy. Now, Mark is 29 and my sister turns 19 tomorrow. You're thinking "that's 10 years apart, no need to worry." Last night we went bowling for my sister's birthday and she invited Mark. He showed up late and just ended up hanging out. Afterward we went with the group to get some icecream and he tagged along. "YAY" to me, right? Nope. Justin acts like a high schooler crushing on the popular guy. They text messaged each other, just sitting there three feet apart. They are now each other's #1 on myspace. I don't know what to do, I'm going crazy here. Maybe it'll blow over, maybe not. I just don't like where I'm stuck right now. If you got this far, thanks for reading my rant. I know I sound immature and I apologize. I just didn't know where else to let this out.

Well, today I do my first official jury duty. Since I am no longer in school and currently on a break from touring, I had no other way but to grin and bear it (or is it "bare it?" Oh well) My sister is getting her haircut today... short. She's cutting off 9-10 inches to donate to Locks of Love. That was my New Years resolution, but mine isn't long enough yet. Her's is now. So I have to wait until jury duty is over to see it. This is what you get from me being up at 3 in the morning.

I'm not even sure if that's how you spell it, but you get my drift. Anyways, the ever popular Officer Hottiepants is stopping mi casa at 11:30 to hang for a while. His shift starts at 11 and his beat is just south of our house. Its more of my sister's doing because she has no problem talking around him and they're better friends. But he is coming. He did drop by last Friday night around 3 AM to help unload from the Relay for Life (it ended early due to rain). Yup, that's what it is- the highlight of my week is a short visit from Officer McHottie! PS That's a pic from him helping out as an escort for a pagent...

Did you see this week's episode?!? I had missed about a season and a half but I thought I had caught up with it all during summer reruns. GUESS NOT. I sure didn't know this was the LAST season of Gilmore Girls!! After this week's, I was anxious to see how they left the cliff hanger for next season. I was hoping they were going to end it with Rori's wedding, but then thought "maybe next season." GUESS NOT. Loreli and Luke still seem to be loose ends on a 5+ year plot and was thinking the cliff hanger would be those two. GUESS NOT. Next Tuesday, May 15th, is the LAST and FINAL show of Gilmore Girls. Oh the insanity. So much left undone and they're going to try and wrap it all together in one hour! Check back next Wednesday, you're likely to hear back from me again!

Some of you may have already seen my post on myspace, but if you didn't, here's the announcement again. I now have pictures up on myspace of the extremely H-O-T cop that I have been crushing on the past two years. We are "pretty good" friends now and we've hung out the past couple of weekends. So, if you want to know what he looks like, go to my profile and go to my pics and the one that isn't entitled Stars. They're the last two photos in that group. FYI- you'll need a drool cloth. Leave a comment if ya feel like it!

Oh my goodness, I have a blind lunch date tomorrow and I'm just now getting nervous. I'm cramping like major (which is a fault on Eve's part- YOU HAD TO TAKE A BITE OF THAT STUPID APPLE!!!). I guess I could update on how it went tomorrow. Wish me luck...

Okay, so now I'm beginning to pack for the long haul and I must admit I'm getting a little nervous. Its only six weeks (I was gone longer for my internship) but we're constantly on the move. The longest we are staying anywhere is four days. We have a few one nighters but lots of road. It'll be my first experience on a sleeper bus- you know, the kind that singers stay on when on tour. I haven't had a good history with little sleep, but I am determined to over come that. Its fun hangin' with my peeps!

What are the dates for the childrens show and Grease?!?

What a weird year. It started off so fast- assist. directing the musical, 19 hrs., graduating. But man, it has stalled and I can't seem to find a new battery to get it going. Tomorrow I hit the boring 2-3. It seems funny to think what was going on this time last year. I had such a good group of friends (some closer than others but they were all good friends) and had probably the best birthday ever. We were all taking finals, havin' a party, and just loving life. I hope you all are experiencing that right now, with it getting so close to CHRISTmas. To those of you who are graduating this Dec. or May: good luck!! Enjoy your college life- its different when you get out. To those of you who have a little bit more to go: keep going, the end will get there soon enough. And to those of you, who just like me, are out of school: I miss you all. Merry CHRISTmas.

I think its funny that everyone has gotten so hooked on myspace and facebook that nobody ever posts on livejournal anymore.

Yep, I've reached a point in my "no-career" career to start looking for auditions. I have one this Saturday at Casa Manana for two of their shows, Huckleberry Finn and Santa is Coming to Town. I am singing Out Here on My Own from Fame and REALLY nervous! I could use some prayers and good thoughts this week.

Its never fun figuring out things about yourself that you said would never happen. I have given other people hard times before about not dealing well with change, always saying its a part of life and it would be too boring if life didn't constantly change. Well, now I'm sitting on my island- population one- feeling like life has taken be for a ride. I am having a hard time dealing with change. I thought I was handling it in stride, taking the blows as they come. But low and behold, facebook has a whole new set up and it freaked me out. Okay, you're not supposed to freakout about changes on the internet, but I guess facebook was the straw that broke the camels back. And I'm not just talking about not having anything to do right now besides update my livejournal, but the whole last year has been turned upside down. My senior year in college started out rough- friendships changing, new freshmen, living on my own- only to lose my grandmother after seeing her smile only once after getting back from my internship. I made new friends, lost old friends, and made many memories with family, but I've gone and done that my whole life. Adding a sister going through deep depression, college graduation, and opening a new chapter in my life, its been hard to take lately. Maybe I'm just being sad today because its the one year anniversary of losing my grandma or I'm just restless, either way, I'd like for things to kind of hurry up and get me somewhere else. It's days like today its hard to go at God's pace and I want to be a selfish human and tell him to hurry up.
Now, I think that's enough for my pityparty. If y'all could drop in on myspace and say hello every now and then, that would be nice. Thanks for reading my sad slop.

Whose all in the first show?

Okay, for those that have a livejournal and are wondering about why that sudden story change (of talking about getting this job in New Orleans to NOT HAVING ONE), here's the 411. I had applied just for the heck of it, thinking that it was a slim chance for a call back. Low and behold, they did. We talking about what the job of company manager involved and I told them from day one that had no experience, but I was willing to try. They narrowed it down after three weeks and finally called to offer me the job. They said they were going to do the background checks- which he (Mr. Crumb) said early on that is what they do at the stage of hiring the applicant- and they should be calling with an affirmation. They call we had last Tuesday, he got my address to send the contract. His exact words were "to send you the necessary documents." Well, he never called on Friday, so I waited until Monday afternoon to call him. When I called, all I got was "Miss Ellis, we went with someone else that had more experience." WHAT?!?! If they wanted someone with more experience than me, they could have said no thanks that first phone call. So...with all that said, I am still here, looking for a job and living at home. Life pretty much sucks at this point. At times like this, I wish I was still back at Tarleton.